Scare yourself

Day 2

To overcome my fear I have to realize that it comes straight from me. This exercise is to let fear be. It can’t get any worse so that you simply need to scare yourself and want to scare yourself to overcome the fear of being afraid. To accept that there is nothing wrong with you while being under a constant fear (and not quite sure of what) is harder than you think. I feel like I need a help- a doctor, some sort of medicine, yet I don’t want to tell anyone of it. I can’t bear the thought of NOT being NORMAL for more people. I can’t accept myself, why should anyone else. Suddenly all my beliefs of independence and that I are a remarkable person is down the toilet. And my world starts to spin; it is like I don’t know where to put myself.

What this exercise intend to do is: fear until there is nothing to fear. To be honest it is true what they say that it can’t become worse. It is always the same- the same old feelings- nothing new. But still it is not easy- you need a lot of practice. And all I have to do is to fight, to not let myself get in my way. I have to take control of my life.